So.....I havent written a post for a while. But feeling rather lonely in my house, yes it gets like that when my daughter is away and the son is asleep. In fact it gets like this often. Its an odd thing going from flatting/sharing a house/having a social life, to a partnership (pfffft) and family dwelling (again pffft) only cause my previous relationship was neither of these things in hindsight. It would seem we were only 'playing house'. But I digress. In my lonely 'woah is me' state I decided to write about the reason for this....

DERBY

Oh my gosh there I said it. My first derby downer.

WRDL had our first scrimmage last night over with Mount Militia who are experienced players. Scrimmage is where you play a bout. Just as you would a real game but its at a practice. I kind of thought I was progressing nicely. yeah I can do 25 in 4.48 (best record yet for me) can do the drills confidently, can give it my all and nail it, can try new things and most of the time successfully, I feel usually so confident, I can coach freshies on basics, but, oh but, scrimmage was unlike anything I expected.

It sure knocked me down a peg (and on the floor) it was humbling and a very sore reality check for me and most of us. JUST BECAUSE YOU CAN SKATE DOESN'T MEAN YOU CAN PLAY DERBY. For real. On the track as a blocker, I was so confused! I kept getting left behind my pack and then by the time Id race to reach them they would move. I would try to spin around to find my pack and end up counter blocking an opponent. I did get to jam though and that was a buzz. I didn't want to do it but then had the most awesome blocker who cleared paths for me so only took one big hit, which I hit back and we both fell over. baha.

Anyway I have thought obsessively about it since 24 hours ago mostly about what I did wrong, which in my mind is everything, except for my jam, and kept thinking how it was just chaos and I was out of my depth. But now I have had my mope but am very aware of the hardwork and many many aching bones I have ahead of me. Training tomorrow and yes there will be scrimmage. And yes I will go back to the Mount again for scrimmage. I'm determined to nail it. I wont give up. Derby has given me so much and I am going to give back all I have got and then some. grrrrrr.